Shout out to my real friends....
You know who you are. You're the one who doesn't forget. The one who remembers to email me even if we haven't talked for months. The one who sticks by even when I'm far from perfect, or even satisfactory. The one who gives me the benefit of the doubt, because you know that deep down I didn't mean to make that mistake. The one who actually wants to hear what I have to say, not just feign conversation for your own sake.
These are friends I'm lucky to have. I'm often negative on my blog, but once in awhile, the thought of a true friend emailing, the reading of an email from a friend from afar but still close in my mind, and the recognition of how lucky I am to even have them as friends... reminds me that I'm far richer in friendships than anything else.
Thanks for understanding... I'll be the same old me at some point... just give me some time.
These are friends I'm lucky to have. I'm often negative on my blog, but once in awhile, the thought of a true friend emailing, the reading of an email from a friend from afar but still close in my mind, and the recognition of how lucky I am to even have them as friends... reminds me that I'm far richer in friendships than anything else.
Thanks for understanding... I'll be the same old me at some point... just give me some time.
posted by Richard at 6:52 PM
4 Comments:
gosh i hope you consider me one of your real friends...but i can stomach it otherwise...i know we hardly see each other or even talk to each other...but i can't help but think i'd be bothering you with your crazy busy schedule. i should take iniative to call u more often. or you know what? if you have 5 minutes to spare, i'm just a button on your cell away.
i can't wait til out of your bitterness. i was there once too.
negativity attracts negative vibes...on the other hand, positivity attracts/creates positive energy. it's waiting for u!
While misery does tend to enjoy company, there's something to be said about observing life through a discerning eye and constructively critical thought process. Too many settle for happy mediocrity and ascend their soap box thinking they're intimate with others' situations...
Dawn,
I've thought about bitterness a lot. I've decided that its possible to be bitter and happy. Its often the most successful and happy people who become quickly bitter. They are bitter, because they work so hard, sacrifice so much, and have to somehow deal with a lack of recognition for it. I thought that bitterness was a phase - but I've come to embrace it. Its part of who I am. Its how I cope with the society I live in. Its how I avoid getting depressed.
Is it negative? In a sense yes. Is it wrong? I don't think so. I'd hate to be falsely positive jsut for the sake of being positive - or I'd be untrue to myself. Which is even more dangerous.
I think one of the hardest things about my schedule is that many of my friends tell me that they are afraid to call me especially if I'm not there. In fact, a voicemail, an email, anything makes me feel good even if I dont' answer immediately. I myself am guilty of dropping the ball as well... I'm far from a good friend right now - I need to be better.
Wifey -
I agree. I get upset when people paint only a rosy picture and forget to see the tragedy and unjust nature of the world. Its how people forget and stop working to better themselves and the world they live in. Ugh. I'm on a fucking soapbox too now.
i admit i'm guilty of not calling..i better get over thinking i'm a bother....it's like when my dad was sick - i remember who visited him and who didn't just cuz they didn't like hospitals or what not. it's almost the same..
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